Saturday, October 18, 2008

BETRAYED

Do you believe that we learn something everyday?
Well...yes we do.
Cos I do.
I was actually trying to avoid updating the blog.
Trying not to say what I was supposed to say.
But I believe I have kept it well inside but it had swell, bloated and about to explode.
So, before it explode and hurt myself,
or the people around me,
I better let it go!!!
So, what the heck!

Terrible festive I had.
I've finally found out the true colours of own flesh and blood.
Not to mention who.
But the truth hurts.
The person I think and look up upon to is the TRAITOR!
BETRAYER! SCUMMED! FILTHY! ROTTEN! IMPOSTOR!
(All those words mentioned are not in order just fyi)
Let me cut it short here.
What were you thinking by doing all these things?
Are you getting anywhere to it?
If so, look where are you now?
Are they looking up upon you?
One part is totally pissed and cursed you.
The other is calm but hurt deep inside and still trying not to say it out.
They all packed their bags and left.
I know thats what you want anyway.
You've got it now.
Congrats!
You've succeed!

I was actually saddened by all the remarks and things you've said and trying to prove to people
what I did was wrong.
Hey...guess what?
You ...(thought of swearing but...)
can have it.
I dun care.
You guys deserved each other.
To the two small ones...pity that you have them as guides!
The thing that I've learned was even the very own flesh and blood would kill for glory!
Damn it!
So dun trust people easily.
You, who betrayed me,
I wish good luck. Our ties are dead!

For you who believed and still believe in me,
I thank you.
I wun betray you.
Till I die.

So what!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Holiday Information:-

Where : Cameron Highlands
When : 27th September 2008 - 30th September 2008
Events : Celebrated Bday, Library visit with students.

Where : Singapore
When : 01st October 2008 - 04th October 2008
Event : Celebrating Festive with Families and more families...

Outcome : Money well spent, enjoyed ourselves and ate a lot too...

Conclusion : United we stand, divided we fall... Think happy and be happy. Cheers!

p/s - Grams cooking is still hard to beat!!! "Ayam Masak Merah" da BEST!!!!Awwwww!!!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

I Hide and I Cried Out Loud

Past 3 days was splendid.
Learning something new each day.
But this time(29th Sept/Tuesday), it was teaching them to sing .
"I Have A Dream" was the title.
It was for their concert.
Normally they have it just before their year end holidays.
They were highly spirited.
Full of enthusiam too.
I was actually impressed by their passion to sing with "great" reactions.
When I mean great was Fascinated great.
Maybe I was singing or shall I say teaching them to sing well.
They looked at me with such amazement.
Hahaha...but really, I was singing that good.
Yes! I am still good at it.
Taught them the first verse and they seem to manage it pretty well.

The next day was an excursion to the library.
As it was their first time there, excited and curious are the words to describe them.
What do you expect from them?
4 to 6 years of age.
But I can tell how actually they really enjoyed the trip very much after that.
Cos their faces said so!

That night, took a bus down straight to SGP.
Double decker whoah!!!
Journey was smooth.
Slept right thru....
..till the border!

Got changed and picked up by dad.
It was a memorable day as things to remember along the way.
He talked bout the time when things as well prepared those days during the first day of fest.
It was all ready for them.
But now it's different.
He teared with the look of lost.
I felt it.
Sis felt it too. She cried.
DS was there and felt it.
Sis cried too.

Well. I was doing well holding to my tears.
Not later that evening when he sent us back to JWA5.
He was talking bout the same thing.
Only different thoughts of how he fekt lonely and not prepare for all these.
He was mentioning bout how he wanna spend time with the people he love now and be happy only.
Not thinking about anything else cos he wanna GO in peace.
He said bout sis being a third grade citizen if he's gone.
I know my responsibility as a bro.
She is my responsibility.
He mentioned about what he did when he dunno what to do.
He went to her grave and asked for help from her.
Asking for support or showing him some sign of help.
I understand.
So does DS.

I cried out loud.
But I hide.

Love you DaD.
My responsibility is you now.